My mom and I were talking about how weird Asian commercials are, particularly Japanese ones, and she mentioned how even though they might seem odd and crazy to us, a lot of Japanese people think it’s “kawaii ne!” She said it in such a loud, high-pitched voice that PERFECTLY resembled the way cutesy Japanese women say it. It was HILARIOUS. Makes me wonder how many times she heard that when she lived in Japan. LOL.

The best thing about memorizing dialogues in my Chinese book: practicing out loud and overexaggerating every line. WAHH, TAI HAO LE!

Mini peanut butter cups, stop being so delicious.

I hate Chinese.

I feel like my life needs to change. Not drastically. Just little things here and there.. which kind of add up to a lot, actually. The only problem is, I don’t know what exactly. I can pick out dozens of things I’d like to change but can’t. I just feel like something’s wrong. With my life, with my relationships, with me. I don’t know how to fix it. I wish I did.

Rolling around on a bed with freshly cleaned sheets.

The absence of hostility is not equal to the presence of positivity and support.

I just remembered I have some Zelda decals that I ordered a few months ago before TI. I wanna put one on my paddle, but dunno if it’ll look nice ‘cause they’re kind of small. Not THAT small. But still somewhat small.

Presentation went really well.

The audience wasn’t very responsive, but they all kept an open mind and we managed to more or less maintain their interest. Ivy’s a really good partner. She did a great job. She doesn’t give herself enough credit.

I feel like I’m not prepared for the presentation tomorrow (it’s on LGBTQ awareness). I know more or less all the information just from branching off my personal experience, but for some reason I feel uneasy about it. Probably because I don’t like the presentation itself. There are some pretty strong points, but others are just.. stereotypical LGBTQ presentation info—too general and doesn’t hit the heart of the community. It’s also geared more toward the L and the G. When I first saw the presentation at the Youth Council meeting earlier this month, I mentioned that, along with other things they could improve on. Then they recruited me and I joined thinking they would, you know, actually improve the presentation, but. I’ve added a few things, but with the layout of the powerpoint, it’s hard to fluidly insert additional information on the slides.. which I personally think is pretty important. But oh well. I’ll just chime in verbally. Okay, this post totally took a tangent from my original thoughts. LOL. I’ve just been really stressed about this whole outreach work thing.

Thank you.

Thank you to everyone who was here for me today. Most of you will probably never see this, but I wanted to dedicate a post to all of you anyway because your support really pulled me through today. So thank you to everyone who left me a reply on tumblr, texted me, or messaged me. You guys are amazing.